Holding on

I no longer see the point of me holding on.

What is the point holding on, what is the point hanging on, what is the point hoping for the best when things arent going to be alright?

I tried. and i give up now. I cant see the end of it, i cant see the reason to hold on anymore.

I tried to be happy over every small little improvement but now i learned that those are just illusions.

Its just easier to let everything go now, start all over new than to hold on to something that might make things worse after this.

-cher-

hanging in there

64 days
4 exams
and i will be done.....

things were pretty messy for the past few weeks. I dont remember myself being this depressed before. it wasnt merely a matter of a day or two and instead, it was over a few weeks. Everything just seemed to be wrong. It wasnt really bad or catastrophic, it was just that things werent really going on smoothly. It is worse knowing that my presence would definitely improve the situation but im absolutely helpless now because im away

Fortunately, I have now managed to picked myself up a little. sorted my feelings out a little and hoping that i will make bigger progress (good) by accumulating all the small improvements that i managed to pick up each day.

for now, i will just have to hold on. focus on my exams. and i know, things will pretty much be sorted as soon as i reach home

till then, all the best for me.
-cheryl.

A promise

A stalk of rose, symbolizing a new chapter, a new start.

Together with a long letter that touched my heart :'(

He can be so sweet really. (Cher said she gives him A+ for his effort!)  And that made me feel even worse. I promise i will sort this out real soon.


Anyway, updates over the week. Haha so sorry that I MIA-ed for so long and abandon this blog. But now I'm back!

Hou took me for dinner as usual on Friday to celebrate our 30th month.

*OOTD*

Super love my floral top!! :D

*I have always wanted to try out Bulgogi Brothers!!*

Free tea! Was quite good :)

 *Korean side dishes* The pumpkin mash was my favorite!!

 

 *Also, pumpkin soup!!* 

I've never liked pumpkin in my life cause my mum cooks the worse pumpkin porridge/rice ever, but after trying this, I can stay that I don't mind pumpkin anymore, as long as its not my mum's haha :P

*Here comes the famous Heart-shaped beef meat!*

Food was good! But one advice, eat the meat while its hot, cause when it starts to turn cold, it doesn't tastes as good anymore.

p/s: Lol I just found out I could change the area of focus in my camera. Before this, it was all auto-focus which always focused on the wrong subject, hence the blurred pictures  :P Hehe sorry noob here, learning something new bout my camera everyday :P


Wednesday 4.8.13, was a happy day for me. It has been a long time since I last felt so happy. Thankiew dear. Thanks for giving your best to me, for always trying to turn the wrong things right, for never giving up on this.

I had no classes on Wednesday, so the bf decided to take one day off work to accompany me. And he decided that he wanted to bring me out on a full day dating. He secretly planned out the whole day of activities without letting me know, so that I would be excited and anticipating it! Hehe

Woke up at 10am and I asked him 'so what is our first plan?' And he said, 'get ready and we are going for brunch'.

Guess where he brought me to?? Mr and Ms Cafe @ Ara Damansara (yes Cher if you're reading this, its in Ara Damansara Oasis Square). Lol I was just randomly asking him one day to find out where is this cafe cause I've seen lots of people posting it on instagram and because Cher asked me to go find out where is it. Manatau he so efficient bring me there already :P

*Had fun with their props hahahaah*

Mr & Ms

 

 

*Toppers*

*Scrambled Eggs, Avocado Mash, Melted Cheese, Turkey Ham with Wholemeal Toast*

*The Meaty Big Breakkie*

Guys will always be guys, eating like a monster zzzzz

Honestly, I don't like the food here. It was just really really normal, and super filling that I couldn't finish up my food. If the food was really good, however full my tummy is also I will gobble it down. Haha

*My Brunch Companion!* 

Reminds me of Melbourne. How much I miss having brunches in Melbourne every weekends :( Boo..

Anyway the barista wasn't around at the time, so I didnt have my coffee fix. Nouuuuuu so sad!! :(

*So darling compensated me by getting me this!*

My new favorite now- Pacific Coffee's Caramel Swirl!

After our coffee break, our next plan was Genting! Yeap the bf booked a room in Genting without telling me!! I only knew about it the day before!! And I had lab session the next morning at 9am. Lol crazy plan I know! :P

Reached Genting and checked in to our room.

And the first thing I did was to STUDY. Because it was a super sudden plan and I had tests the next week so I brought my notes up. Haha I know kiasu me!!! Studied for 2 hours then we decided to go down for early dinner. 

Walked around First World Plaza and finally settled for the HOT POT steamboat plus bbq. RM30 per person, and having hot food and soup in cold weather is like the best feeling ever. It was FREAKING cold that day due to the non stop rain. The temperature was like 15 degrees! Super loving it la!

 *As usual, the liu for steamboat!*

 

 *Steamboat in the middle, plus bbq at the sides*

We just sat there and ate and chit chat for 2 hours. Food was acceptable, not too bad. The chicken and tomyam soup was the bomb la! Damn good. 

After dinner was the highlight of our trip up to Genting, plus it was the MAIN reason why darling chose to bring me up.

*Cause he knew how much I wanted to watch MAGICIANS* :)

It was a 1.5 hours show featuring 7 magicians from all over the world. And it was a really breathtaking experience. I was so so fascinated by all their tricks man. I was trying to look really closely to discover their tricks but seriously I couldn't figure it out!! 

Some were lame but some were DAMN FREAKING PRO. Seriously awesome.

Was super duper hyper after the show ended, and we decided to try our luck at the casino. 

Went in for less than 30minutes and we won rm50 on the dice game! Wheeee super happy and LUCKY day. We kept betting on the same few numbers, which were no. 4, 8, 10. 
Which was our hotel's room number 4810. Hehe and serious shit that few numbers kept opening in that 30minutes!!! Even the dealer of that table we were playing at was so shocked when we kept winning on that same few numbers. LOL!!!!! Could see her shocked face when no one bets and we just kept playing that few numbers and WINNING :P 

We would have stayed longer if not because we had to wake up early the next morning to rush down for my 9am lab session :( Boo seriously so potong stim la. If only I had no morning labs which is compulsory!!

Went back up to the room, and my next surprise came. Hou said 'go and open the safe box, the password is your birthday', and me being so excited, ran all the way back to the hotel room and open the box. Hmm I found two glasses inside, and he said 'go wash the cups nicely'

I was like ummm okayy... And i came out to find this.......

*White wine which he bought for me!!* 

AAAAAA HAPPYYYYY LIKE GILA

He opened it and I took my first sip and I was like 'OMG damn good! How did you know wat type of white wine I like??' He said 'I did my research ;P'

Haha it was really really good!!! And we spent the rest of the night drinking half the bottle of wine before going to bed :) It was a good night :)


Our alarm went off at 5.45 am. Yes that early T.T Got ready, checked out and headed down. Our plan was to stop by somewhere for breakfast before him sending me to Monash for my lab. 

But it started raining like super heavy and thus causing a super bad jam. Like really super bad. We left Genting at 6.30am and only reached Monash at 8.30am. 2 whole hours, when usually it will only take 1hour! 
So we had no time for breakfast, and the bf was feeling super guilty that he couldn't take me out for breakfast and also worried that I would get hungry later on. So he decided to go to a nearby shop to tapao some food for me! Siew Pao plus Iced Coffee, which we sat in the car and ate cause it was raining cats and dogs outside.


Thats the end of the short surprise trip he planned for me :) I give him A ++ for his effort and for all the little tiny details he puts in to make this trip a memorable one. Thankieww dear! :D


Now back to studying. The coming week will be a hectic one. Really dreading it URGHHHH


-mun-