silent killer

Stress is killing me.. its eating me alive. I seriously have no idea why am I so stressed up this time! I swear I've not felt this way in a long time. Usually, I'll be super prepared by now. But this time, I feel so blank, so empty inside. I feel like my brain is just an empty core.

And my 1st paper is on monday. Just great la..

Its not like I've not been studying. I really did. I really tried my very best. I only sleep like 5 hours a day now. Maximum 6. I'll wake at 7am and force myself to go to uni. Sit there and study till 8pm, then I'll come home and continue till 1am. And the cycle repeats.


But seriously FML man! No matter how hard I try to memorize, how many times I read my notes, I still feel BLANK inside! The minute I close my eyes and sleep, I'll totally forget everything FML!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And for the past week, I've only managed to study 2 subjects, while in total I have 4. I've not even started with the other 2. I'm so dead this time. I swear I just wanna pass this time. Please..


The only thing that I look forward to everyday is lunch time. Cause it means that I get to see Hou :D And it means that he'll be bringing me out for lunch and be there to comfort me. lol I think he's gonna go crazy bout my mood swings these days. I have bipolar disorder la! One minute I'm so damn depressed that I refuse to talk, the next minute I'm laughing like crazy @@


The food pictures in my camera is piling up. Hehe so people, drool at my lunches :P

* Lunch atTHAI THAI at Sunway Pyramid*
I really love the food there. But its kinda pricey @@

*Dinner at Bumbu Bali :D*
Food kinda pricey also..

*My all-time favorite Char Siew at FSF Aman Suria*

We went Aman Suria initially to have the Curry Wantan Mee but it was close! We drove all the way there in 2 consecutive days but I don't know why they never open stall. :((


And and we found a new place to "yamcha". Haha its called Hi-Tea la. Its called Coffee Chemistry at the new First Subang Mall. LOL no wonder the hole in his wallet is getting bigger and bigger day by day. I'm sowieeeee dear :((

*Mocha*
You should try this Cher! Its really nice!! Come subang find me i bring u there :P

*Chicken Pie*

*Beef Bacon Creamy Carbonara*

Then the other day, when he had no time to find me for lunch coz he had classes the whole day, I had Ahboy to take me out for lunch :D Hehe thankieww ahboy. Nahh see I blogged bout you.. Don't so siew hei :P


He brought me to Pyramid Sakae Sushi :D

*Damn hi-tech d lo O.O* Order using the ipad 2 on each table. Lol

*All my favorite!!! :D* Ate till was damn super fulll man :P

Dinner on Thursday at San Francisco SteakHouse. Food was really really pricey but it was damn damn good. Damn worth the price lo. Haha okla I promise to stop eating expensive food la till the hole in your wallet is mended okie? :P

*Mushroom Soup

*Honey Lamb Ribs* RM50 for a full slab.
Omg seriously the best lamb ribs I had ever eaten!!

*Beef bacon burger*

*And dessert :D*

And yesterday's lunch was Pizza Hut to try their 7 cheese pizza.

*But it was so so only la. Dont really like it. Too cheesy and can get jelak very fast*

*Dinner was BKT :D*

Hehe I know I've been eating alot lately. Blame it on the stress la!! Lunch and dinner are the only two things I look forward to while I'm studying in Monash for the past week. Boo


2more days. Study hard. I can do it. We all can do it!!

-mun-

Life is unfair

I don't understand, no matter how much effort I put in, how much hard work I did, I never seem to get what I am hoping for. I'm just a little upset that my hard work did not pay off.


Was feeling very upset and emo for the past few days. Due to the stress AND my internal marks. And now, knowing that my internal marks were not good, I have to work extra hard for my finals. And also knowing that there is so much to study, which is quite impossible to finish in such a short time, really made me break down.


When i'm mood-less, I can't focus on studying, and I know I should, because there is so much more to study!!!!!!! FML how come I'm not able to deal with my stress this time!!!


I'm so glad I have you as my pillar of support. Without you, I really do not know how am I gonna get thru this. You always say, do not worry bout how much more you have to study, instead just do it. The more you think bout how much you have left, the more you will feel mood-less and the more time you will waste just worrying instead of studying.


Thank you dearie, for coming to Monash to bring me out for lunch almost everyday. And also just sitting there beside me to teman me even though you had nothing to do. And also buying coffee for me everytime just before you leave :)


Seriously, I'm feeling scared now, thinking bout me going off to Australia for 6 months without you by my side. How am I gonna survive??? :(((


But, that will be the thing I'll worry about after my exams. Now, I just need to concentrate on my exams.


-mun-

Supper!

My supper for tonite :D

*Pizza Naan from Stevens Corner*

Special delivery to my house at midnight :) Hehehehehe thankiew dear :D Keeps me awake to hardcore study. Which I finished 3 hours of listening to online lectures.

Blehh damn sien I almost fell asleep. How I wished I was studying in Aussie. Their lecturers are much better than ours!! Our lecturers here are useless I don't even bother attending their classes. Okla I'm only referring to a few of them. Boo waste of my time!!!!!!




And oh ya! I recently discovered that Bar B Q Plaza is an awesome place to eat! I remember my first time there was during form 4 if im not mistaken, and I didn't really fancy that place at that time. Just didn't taste great to me. But few days ago, we ate there and I loved the food there!!

Plus its affordable :)

*Pork Set* Yummy like gilaa!!

The secret to eating this pork is the sauce!! My special creation of the brown sweet sauce, garlic, chili padi and lime. Damn freaking awesome I swear!! ;P



Ok time to sleep! Goodnite!
-mun-

my 21st

i am finally legal!! wahahhaa... it is now THE BEST time of my life. i wish. time and just stop here and i will be forever 21. haha..

this year. things happened to be much better than expectation except for 3 things maybe. one of it is. i scratched my car. ouch man.. heartache TO THE MAX. next is, i was sick from tues-sat. what nonsense. cant even enjoy good food.

so lets get started.

1st celebration. bavarian haus with KBU gang. thanks mun for organising. and yes. i have super limited photos here with me. so just bear with it. speaking of this german restaurant. i think the food is not bad. love the sausages but its really pricey. dont go. unless u r prepared to pay.. once again. thanks for treating me!!


2nd. lunch in this shanghai restaurant with aunt and uncle. no photos. but the xiao loong pao is really good. especially the crab roe one. YUMSS... but again so exp =(

then headed to alexis for cake. was craving for pavlova. ahhaha. madly in love with it. someone please feed me more of it =p sis said the one in Empire Mall is better. well. will try it soon. when they reopen.

3rd. dinner in Angus steakhouse. been wanting to try this place for quite long. finally get to eat here. and the only reason was because it was my birthday. otherwise. i wouldnt even dream of stepping into this place. the wagyu beef. yum yum yum.... it is really good. as compared to the normal sirloin. u know the difference simply by cutting it when u eat. u dun even need to chew to tell that its good. but again. photos in camera. lazy to transfer out.

4th. the unexpected one. he appeared in front of my house at 12am. when i really thought that he was busy helping his aunt at home. brought me mille crepe. durian flavour somemore. wahahhahahah!!! ate it ON THE SPOT. tell me la. how to not get fat? then on my actual bday. he came all the way to bkt jalil just to bring me to genting. he knows i want to go genting and PD. both for my bday. well i chose PD but in the end. he brought me to both. thanks dear!! heheh..

5th. dinner with housemate. they refused to tell me where are we gonna eat.. dun even want to tell me what cuisine. the only clue is 'u can never think of this cuisine'... which is so damn true. it was GREEK food. who on earth will think of greek food.

the food is good. seriously. look at the photos and u will understand. but price = damn expensive.. 5 of us only and it cost rm320.. thanks for treating me!! so touched. then from Changkat, they went all the way to ss15 to get bubble tea. which i later found out that they were so good cus they were trying to buy more time. lol

6th. the minute i reached my room, 16 of them (i think) were hiding in the room, with a cake to give me surprise. super unexpected. and i really thought that they have no plans for me. sorry for complaining! cus yall were really bad to me! din even wish me. but k i take my words back. and they prepared balloon cards for me. haha.. i think. the balloons are still on the wall next to my bed.


7th. dinner with the usual IMU gang in The Hill. nice place. nice food. but price is a little pricey. i will definitely go back there again. but then. dinner was on wednesday. so quite sad la need to leave early cus of stupid 8am class the next day.

8th. PD it is. haha.. one of the best holiday that i have had since long long time... been wanting to have a relax and chilling getaway instead of those usual 'most use all the time to do all the things' vacation.this is.. the best present. thanks baby!! and now... i have only 12 more days. as much as i am trying to be OK and matured, it is easier said than done.. as much as i dont want u to leave, i will let u go. for the better of your future. as much as i want u to come back, i hope u dont. i hope u get a job there. really.. thanks for giving me everything i asked for and thanks for being with me all these time. glad to have u by me. i really cant imagine my life without u.

and thats the end of my 21st birthday. simple and heart warming.

i promise. i will start hardcore studying from tmr onwards. 1 more month to my first paper. MUST STUDY.
-cher-

Exams are approaching!! NOOOO :(

I just realized that my exams are less than a month away and I've not even started studying. FML I have not even read my notes for the first time through. Shit man what is happening to me! I used to be so kiasu that I study everyday and know I'm slacking alot!! Time to buck up Mun Li!! No more slacking!!!!!!!!!!


Teehee okay enough of all the emo stuffs. Today was a good day! First reason was because I got to eat the awesome Char Siew at Meng Kee at Glenmarie...

*Looks good and it taste even better!*

Just looking at this picture makes me crave for it already :( But one thing that I dont like about this place is that the boss is damn fussy and has this stupid rule where you have to order some other food like chicken in order to order the char siew. Like wtf -.-



And the 2nd thing that made me happy today was being able to eat Nong and Jimmy Seafood Fried Rice and Tomyam which was awesome!!!!! :D 2nd time there :P


But it took us 1 hour 30minutes to reach there. Like WTF???? Can even go and come back from Melaka d lo!!!!


I was damn super sien in the car so I took random pictures :P

*look at the jam at Kesas*
it was seriously terribly horribleeeeeeeeee

*Haha his idea of taking this picture*

LOL cause while we were stuck in the car, we were staring randomly at the signboard and I realize that we've been to all those places!!!!

Haha KL ofcouse, too many times..Seremban, yes on the way to Melaka.....Ampang, we were on the way there to Nong and Jimmy....Kuantan, to Cherating...and Cheras, ofcourse to LOP! :P


Hehe seems like he brought me to almost all places he can think of and now he's running out of ideas @@

*Twin tower at a distance :))*

And after that picture, I accidentally fell asleep :P ooopss sorry was too tired.. Lol and when I woke up, we were almost reaching the place...

*traveled more than an hour to had this awesome fried rice!!!*

*and also tomyam* YUMMMMY :D

-mun-

Happy Birthday!!!!

Happy 21st Cheryl Lee!!! Heheeee don't be so sad on your birthday laaa.. You're finally legal to walk into any casino without getting chased out!! ps: unlike me, i had to cheat my way in :(


Hope you enjoyed the mini celebration we had for you and sorry that it was mini :(

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I was damn super super super super happy yesterday because darling took me to genting and we spent our entire time in the casino. Lol yes I had to cheat my way in by using my sis's IC. But we looked alike okay! ;P


And the happiest thing was not going to genting. The happiest thing was going to Genting AND winning money!! I WON MONEY OKAY! First time in my life <3

Eventhough its not alot of money, but the feeling of leaving the casino with more money than what we had when we first went in was greatttttttt :D


And p/s: I won most of the money on Roulette!! I won it I swear. It wasn't him! It was meeeee!! He just supplied the money. While I multiplied it HAHAHAA :D


I didn't know Roulette was so addictive plus chee kik at the same time. When the ball was rolling rolling rolling, and I was staring so hard at the screen hoping that it would fall at my number, my heart would be beating so fast and when it hit my number, and seeing my money multiplying, BEST FEELING EVER!!!!!!!!! <3


Hehe I don't care! Genting again end of the year when I'm truly officially legal!!!!!! :D


Now back to reality :( End of mid sem break.. Now study hard all the way to finals :(



-mun-


I feel so truly blessed to have you in my life :) You always make me feel so loved <3