spooky?

it's currently 2am in the morning...and i'm still wide awake..due to the coffee i begged my sis to make for me so i wont be sleepy so i can study...

i feel i can study much better at night..i dont study much during the day cause i tend to feel sleepy ALL THE TIME and the weather is too hot and uncomfortable for me to study >.<

so all i can do is, drink coffee...and i know i wont be able to sleep until maybe 5am? but i dont feel like studying anymore now..i think i did enough for tonight..means now i can watch my EU...double yay for me! =D

EU is like a motivation for me to study..cause i will keep telling myself "if you faster finish studying this and this..then u can watch ONE episode of EU later" i know i can control myself and not watch more than one...wahhh so bangga XD so people, give me more series to motivate me =D



two nights ago, something very spooky happened...=/ i know i'm a very pengecut person...i slept at 4 am cause i was studying..the whole house was quiet and everyone was sound asleep..

i went down to wash my cup..and then, when i was walking back up, a piece of paper my dad stuck on the wall suddenly flew.... and then, i felt something cold on my back...and i had chills going down my spine ok..i was damn damn scared..i did not dare think so much..i just faster went back to my room...and off the lights..and lie on bed and close my eyes...>.<

i did not even wash my face or brush my teeth..i was too scared to even go to the bathroom by myself...i dont know why i just feel that my room, or my house is "not clean"...

cause last time, when i was sleeping, i always feel like there's something pushing me or putting pressure on me...at first, i thought it was only a dream..but it happened not once, not twice, but at least 7 to 8 times...

i will be sleeping then i will feel something pressing against me..i will try to fight back or struggle but it wasnt that easy..my eyes are closed but in my mind, i kept telling myself to OPEN my eyes and everything will be okay...

most of the time, i had to use every single bit of energy to fight open my eyes and everything will disappear...i used to sleep with my lights on last time and was afraid to close my eyes cause once i close my eyes, the same thing would happen again..

i told this to my dad, but he did not want to believe me..i guess no one will ever believe me until they experienced it themselves..>.<

so the only thing i could do was to put a buddha on top of my bed..and thank god, i did not experienced it again...

maybe i should try harder.......

-mun-