Life is unfair

I don't understand, no matter how much effort I put in, how much hard work I did, I never seem to get what I am hoping for. I'm just a little upset that my hard work did not pay off.


Was feeling very upset and emo for the past few days. Due to the stress AND my internal marks. And now, knowing that my internal marks were not good, I have to work extra hard for my finals. And also knowing that there is so much to study, which is quite impossible to finish in such a short time, really made me break down.


When i'm mood-less, I can't focus on studying, and I know I should, because there is so much more to study!!!!!!! FML how come I'm not able to deal with my stress this time!!!


I'm so glad I have you as my pillar of support. Without you, I really do not know how am I gonna get thru this. You always say, do not worry bout how much more you have to study, instead just do it. The more you think bout how much you have left, the more you will feel mood-less and the more time you will waste just worrying instead of studying.


Thank you dearie, for coming to Monash to bring me out for lunch almost everyday. And also just sitting there beside me to teman me even though you had nothing to do. And also buying coffee for me everytime just before you leave :)


Seriously, I'm feeling scared now, thinking bout me going off to Australia for 6 months without you by my side. How am I gonna survive??? :(((


But, that will be the thing I'll worry about after my exams. Now, I just need to concentrate on my exams.


-mun-